Ok...Now,I finally picked up the pen and write down the situation where I am in .I just looked the calendar  on my phone ,figured out that there were nine days I have spend with some  'pretences' like 'I need to have a rest' or 'I am too tired to do something else' or I am really tired of doing works again and again ,I do want to shake it off . And I'd love to share my rememberance where happened in the school I live for three years .Em......I don't know how to start my speeking , but at this moment ,from my sensitive heart ,I have to talk and appreciate a person who were  willing to listen to me with her enough patience when I felt helpless .I still remember that is a terrible day ,because of my puzzles for the life ,for the world ,for me myself and for my confusing condition .I did think too much ,on the one hand ,I was trying my best to prove myself and show the value of my own ,on the other hand ,I should puzzled that what the real world feels like ,how the universe works ,and who am I ,what I'm gonna to be ,what I'm working for ...Oh ny heaven !  With so many problems and questions in my head ,my world was falling apart suddenly ,I did feel like screaming ,because I didn't have anyone to talk to .However i found you finally ,you are the one who I was trusing in ,actrally when i talked to you I didn't know how to express my puzzler, so ,with just a few words ,I couldn't keep back my tears ,I guess ,I  released  several months' pressure by doing that. Anyways ,thank you my dear Miss Han,I'll  never forget the night and it's a precious experience I never had before and will save forever.